3 March 2016

Deacon

Our sweet boy passed away on Monday.  As you can imagine, it has been an incredibly difficult time for us.  Deacon was the silliest of dogs; as busy as they come.  He had very little respect for people sitting still.  It wasn't easy to be a massive fan of reading with Deacon's pleading eyes begging for a game of tug-of-war, fetch, a walk, or hide and go seek.  You couldn't say 'back yard' without squeals of delight being yelped out as the sound of his nails scampered toward the garden door.  He had an unusual fondness for the sound of the woman's voice on our answering machine.  The sound of tea being poured was supposed to mean that I planned to sit down with my book.  Deacon thought it meant that Mum was going to have nothing to do but play.  More often than not, I was only to happy to oblige because I was all too aware that his time with us would never be long enough.

As anyone who has ever lost a beloved pet, or even one that drove you a bit crazy sometimes, it takes time to concentrate on just about anything.  I've spent much of these past few days looking at video, photos, and drinking in the aroma of Deacon's bed blanket.

Deacon was able to enjoy a drive in the countryside, with the windows rolled down, on his last day.  He went to sleep in his bed with cuddles and whispers to send him on his way.  Forever in our hearts..we miss you to the moon and back, sweet boy.



22 comments:

  1. Oh, Darlene, I am so sorry, and I know just how you feel. It's a loss that people who haven't ever had a pet perhaps don't understand fully, but for those who've been through it it's a big thing.
    On a happier note, it's great that you have such a lovely video, and I am most impressed by Deacon's tricks!
    Hugs to you.
    x

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    1. Karen, your comforting words and support mean so much. I know very well how much you love your dogs and when they're such a large part of your day, their absence is a painful void.
      Your hugs are so very appreciated...thank you.

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  2. I am so sorry, too! We had a very funny (kind of neurotic, Woody Allen-esque) schnauzer named Sam growing up, and I still fondly remember his personality all these years later. (And on a side note, how nice to see you in the video!) Thinking of you, sending a hug too.

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    1. We always carry our pets in our hearts, don't we. And it's wonderful how sometimes the ones with the silliest of quirks worm their way just a little bit deeper. Thanks for sharing your memory of Sam, Audrey, it made me smile. The hug was very much needed as well.

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  3. So sorry to hear this, Darlene. It's so hard to lose a member of the family, I know how much you'll miss him.

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    1. Thankfully there is now such an awareness that our pets are truly members of our family. We've had cards, flowers, even a bottle of wine, from friends and neighbours. My supervisor checks in with me every day, as do my friends at work, and that goes a long way to sending the message that we don't have to pretend everything is fine until we leave the building. Thank you, Lyn.

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  4. Oh Darlene, I am sorry. Just the small glimpses I have seen and the words you have written told me that you were blessed with a wonderful, wonderful dog and that he must have left such a huge void as well as those lovely memories. I send hugs too, and suspect Briar will have one or two more than usual tonight.

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    1. Oh to have another day of mucky paws, drool on the floor, and a wet nose poked into the hand holding my book. Deacon was my shadow in just the way that Briar is yours, Jane. Your kind words and hugs mean so much and please give Briar a cuddle for me.

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  5. I'm so sorry, Darlene! Losing a beloved pet is a terrible loss (((hugs)))

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    1. I was telling my husband about you and your daughter squealing with laughter at the sight of Deacon in an apron for Virago Reading Week. We found the photo and so enjoyed the memory...thank you so much for the hugs. Take care.

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  6. So sorry to hear this. He was obviously adorable. Love to you.

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    1. It's a good thing Deacon was adorable at times, Harriet. He was probably called Monkey Boy more than his given name for his silly ways. He is missed beyond belief but everyone's support has helped so very much. Thank you.

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  7. I m so sorry,such a hard thi ng to lose a pet.

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    1. Thank you, Gillie. We are only too aware that this day will come when we bring pets into our lives but they are so very worth having.

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    1. Thank you so much, Claire. Deacon was such a silly boy with a personality as big as the moon. We thought he would be around for years...if only.

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  9. Oh, Darlene, I'm so very sorry to hear that - I know what lovely Deacon meant to you. Thinking of you.

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    1. It's such a difficult time, Simon, but my blog friends have helped me to feel a little less lonely here at the kitchen table. Deacon was our second border collie so I was only too aware that one day this terrible heartache would be back. We made every day count but there is just never enough days with loved ones. Give Sherpa a cuddle for me and thank you SO much for your support; you're lovely.

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  10. I'm sorry to hear about Deacon. I always enjoyed the glimpses of him on your blog. As you say so well, we never have enough time with them.

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    1. That means a lot, readerlane. I'm so thankful that a digital age means I can pull up video and photos at the touch of a screen to see Deacon romping around and splashing in the stream. Thank you for your support...I'm so glad you enjoyed reading about him.

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  11. So sorry for your loss, Darlene. I remember the photo of Deacon with the apron during the Virago Reading Week too. Such a lovely (& quirky) expression he had... put a big smile on my face that day. He was a much beloved family member, and he must have known that right till the end, in the comfort of his own bed.

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    1. That photo of Deacon brings a smile to my face too and I can remember the day it was taken as if it were yesterday. Such a silly boy....thank you so much, inkyfoot, for your kind words and taking the time to support us. It warms my heart that Deacon is remembered so fondly.

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